Anxiety

Anxiety creeps in on me daily. My body is taken over by the over whelming sensation that I am:

1. Not worth it
2. Failing
3. Lost
4. Blah blah blah blah

You get the idea.

I never know how to cope with this annoying emotion. I feel as if it is out of my control and I beg and plead that the Lord just comforts my heart and eases my tension. I feel trapped. My head knows the Lord is there with me in this sea of anxiousness, and yet my heart screams out for someone- anyone- to grab hold of it. If I could aline my head and my heart, I'd be golden. But, of course, that's not how things work.


I think what my heart needs is a new perspective. I need to take a step back and recognize what is causing this anxiety. What is this tension that is pressing down on me, causing me to struggle to break free?

Is this something that is hindering my relationship with the Lord?

Because you see, the Lord is full of love and grace and mercy, anything not of Him would be the complete opposite. This anxiety could be the Holy Spirit moving in me, trying to grab my attention. I can picture Him inside me with a megaphone yelling, "Hellllooooooooooo, get a gripppppp!"

I have found that when I take this step back I can see the sin splashed across myself that is causing this big annoying cluster of anxiety. But why do I continually let myself get to this place of anxiousness and stress? Why can't I just nip it in the bud and save myself from days/weeks/months of gut wrenching, nauseating stress?

Because I'm human. Somehow I always forget about this little tid bit. Boo. And that's what it all really boils down to. What every post will really be about, what every problem will eventually point to. Human.

Weak, unworthy, sinful... Human.

Somehow God loves us though. Thank goodness for that... If he didn't I don't know who would.